Re: The vent thread

[Mike]

Geert Wilders in the Dutch government? Really? FASIODJASJN AS SDNCWD AKS FUCK!

[Ehrfürchtige Bennedict]

I basically go real mad over the people that don't value relations with others the same way I do. See, I'm really and I mean really picky with which people I give a flying fuck about. And I have a samurai-like code of friendship. I always return favors, always try to treat such people well and all that crap. But it's like the world just don't agree with me. Every time I start giving a flying fuck about someone it's always the same story. We have a damned great time for a while whether it's for a year or a week. Then the person is suddenly just a nightmare to talk to. Like talking to a brick wall. You decide not to bug him/her/it for a while and think him/her/it will call when it feels like talking. But that just never happens. It's damned infuriating. Nobody places the same damned value in relations with people as I do. Or maybe I just ain't charismatic enough, hell if I know. But me feel like a senile turtle on a highway. Anybody else that gets shit like this?

All the time. All. The. Time.

And I really get the senile turtle on a highway thing too. Very nice description of how I feel sometimes.

Which nicely ties in to my rant: I know it happened months ago, and at the time she was hurt and crying so I didn't say anything, but what she blurted out was soul-destroying for me and came as a huge nuclear bomb to my brain. I froze up and did my nice-person routine, talking to my friend until she felt better, but now that she does I cannot bring myself to return her phonecalls or even look her in the eye. I'm seriously scared I'll hurt her if I do. It was an incredibly mean thing to say and it changed my entire opinion of her as a friend. I should probably confront her with it... right?

Seems it ain't just me who values being friendly towards people.

But every time I am friendly I get mistaken for trying to "get with" said person, is preetty annoying (although nice sometimes xD)

[Garmegin]

Seems it ain't just me who values being friendly towards people.

But every time I am friendly I get mistaken for trying to "get with" said person, is preetty annoying (although nice sometimes xD)

Ain't as much as being all smiles-and-hugs friendly as much as it is being a serious arse about it in my case. And people think you're trying to "get with" them when you're friendly? Even if they're the same sex? Your charisma score must be pretty damn high.

[Ehrfürchtige Bennedict]

Seems it ain't just me who values being friendly towards people.

But every time I am friendly I get mistaken for trying to "get with" said person, is preetty annoying (although nice sometimes xD)

Ain't as much as being all smiles-and-hugs friendly as much as it is being a serious arse about it in my case. And people think you're trying to "get with" them when you're friendly? Even if they're the same sex? Your charisma score must be pretty damn high.

Well, it's provided a good few laughs in the past

[Etular]

As for my thoughts on benevolence, it pretty much ties in with the above "retard" paragraph of mine. I hate those, basically, that seek to cause havok, rebel against authority and similar such nonsense for no reason other than to either boost their ego or because, deep down, they want embrace the beliefs of Discordianism (basically, that means they do it for the sake of spreading/embracing Chaos and discord...). I can't help but wonder "Is there really a point to this...? What do you hope to achieve? even if you rebel against this "Man/Woman", there are still hundreds of thousands more...".

I'd also like to give attention to this part however. You have COMPLETELY misunderstood Discordianism. Try again.

I merely put into my own words this line from Wikipedia:

Discordianism recognizes chaos, discord, and dissent as valid and desirable qualities, in contrast with most religions, which idealize harmony and order.

[Gunnell]

Black people suck.

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[Chase - Esou]

Black people suck.

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Not sure if that point's ever been uttered in such cute words before. :3

[Raviran / Reynar]

Black people suck.

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Heh...

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[Haen Strongwind]

So I got councilled at work for something that I didn't do. Prick of a dept. manager wouldn't listen, though since I've moaned about this guy so many times today, I can't be arsed to do it again.

Eventually obtained proof that what he thought I'd done (or didn't do) was beyond my control, due to me having finished my shift by 5 hours when the thing happened through one of the nightshift workers, who admitted to me that it was them when I asked.
So when I go in tomorrow, I'll happilly tell the guy that it wasn't me and present my proof.
Though instead of apologising, he'll just go "Heh. Eh well." After that, I'm going straight to the company's Trade Union and putting a complaint in about him; something they've wanted me to do for months, due to him having driven five members of staff out in the past by being one of the worst dept. managers imaginable.

He can call it my goodbye present; I'll be leaving that department and changing to part time at the end of this month, due to the start of my full time uni course!

[Nathiniós]

I'm going to break up the mood of this thread being about just ye olde daily life trivialities and perhaps rant way too much, no caps lock this time. This is perhaps way too serious to be just broadcasting over a forum like this but I don't really got friends to vent these thoughts to and even if I did I'd still feel more comfortable posting it on a forum where probably only just 5 complete strangers will read it and maybe have some deep thoughts because of it. So here we go.

I am unlike most people in my understanding of the world and what I want from it. Or maybe I do want the same thing as everyone but am one step back in my search. Most people look for something to make their life worth it - it varies from person to person what this thing is. Now what is it for me? I have many ideas in my head about my future, most of them contradicting each other. The one that stands out best is putting my life constantly at risk. I imagine myself setting out on a journey once I am prepared and just traveling along the world with nothing but the clothes on my back and some weapons. Pitting myself against beasts and other humans for the basic needs of my survival, exploring both wilderness and city, learning new and new things and living on my own terms. And I can't shake off this lust for war. I picture myself going off as a mercenary somewhere just for the fun of it. Now I ain't some damned fool who thinks he could just kill a thousand people and be left without a scratch or without even being tired. I have no illusions about war. I am going to sustain horrible injury. I am probably going to die. Every kill that I make would require every single ounce of myself put into it. I understand war and I still lust after it. I lust after the adrenaline rush of it, that divine feeling and I wish to put my life at horrible risk. Why?

That risk, those "horrors" of such constant risk make people either strong or dead. I wish to be strong then? But what for? I've thought of it as cycle. Fight to become stronger to fight more and better to become even stronger and etc. Maybe it is something else which makes me feel an allure for this? Yes. I know in myself that I'm more interested in the adrenaline rush of it all. That exhilarating feeling, it is important for me. That cycle with which I rationalized conflict was nothing but pretty words to hide this and some other things. Why is having this adrenaline rush so important to me that I'd go as far as a love for an idea which will cost my life? It makes one feel alive. Truly alive. And I'd go as far as a love for an idea which will cost my life because I am desperate. And it's not really that surprising in my case. I do not value my life for there is nothing in it which makes it worth it. The rush of adrenaline remedies that for while it lasts.

So pathetic you must think. The irony is that's the thing which gives me all my strength. My worthlessness is the reason why I would make a great warrior and a tough person. For a warrior to function properly he may not feel anything more than the rush of adrenaline. Not compassion. Not even regard for his own life. This isn't courage. Courage is overcoming fear and these other things that come with all this. This is a total absence of such complications in the first place. And why is this absence? Well, someone who knows his life has no value would not hold it in regard. He would not feel fear for his safety. Maybe even he secretly hopes that he will meet death but such a grim wish would probably remain shielded to him from his psyche. And compassion, regret for taking life? People feel compassion because they fear something might happen to themselves. A man with no value in his life would not feel compassion for what he is doing for he does not fear the same happening to him. It is truly odd in fact. At the same time this makes me a monster among wolves and it makes me the scum of the earth. And it makes me a walking dead man.

So, what does it turn out? I look for a purpose to live and I seek death for my lack of one at the same time. That is why I feel such an urge to see the world, those obscure places and learn more and more things and see as much of the world as I possibly could. That is the reason I don't want a home. It's the reason why I've been reading about the more insane type of physics, psychology and philosophy. It's why I've picked up the religious and the especially obscure religios and spiritual texts and began to read between the lines as to expand my tunnel of reality. It's also why I've even gone as far as to find and make reason of even some of the most obscure and serious occult books. I am a Seeker above all else, looking for a purpose. Something to make my life worth it.

And why do I have to make it so complex? After all, there are so many people out there with a purpose in life without having to go through such things. I've been myself there once. I looked forward to the same simple things as other people. But I've changed. I don't hold the same values now, I can't find reason in those same things. Except maybe for one which was in fact the indirect reason for me to slowly see things in a new light and change my values. But I've come to understand that door is closed for me. I can't say I've tried many times but every time I tried to get through and into the room to which that door led, the door just slammed itself in my face. Even in the most indifferent and silly way. But I still wish I could go through that door in these few years as I prepare to go out and most likely die a dog's death. A mad hope but is not -all- hope mad? But whatever happens I will accept it. Things cannot be wrong or right for they are just the way they are. That is perhaps one of the most important things a person must learn.

That is all. I feel like a huge part o' me burden is over by realising, writing and posting this is although the original reason for me to come to this huge insight of myself will probably still sting like a bitch for a little longer. I hope that those who read it were enlightened in one way or the other. Be they people who never really stop to think, people who do it all the time or psychology professors who needed a fine specimen such as myself to rant like this for his research. I hope I didn't sound like an emo or an attention whore or something.

/end rant

Some severe violence romantization there, bub.

But fuck that, let's be encouraging.

Go earn a goddamn glorious death.

[Sanara]

Goddamn my cellphone's batteries going out during Iron Maiden's play last night. I wanted to get the number of one of the attendees at the festival - I realise women that like Iron Maiden are pretty common, but where I'm from they're almost nonexistant, and far rarer are ones that are damn attractive to boot - but then, battery died and I sort of lost that train of thought along with power.

Such a lucky guy, UGH. At least the concert itself was fucking awesome.

[Etular]

Oh, this vent is long overdue... Also, my the way, this vent is based on Blizzard's Hierarchical system in chats, giving one random individual total power (including the possibilities of banning them from their own created channel), rather than being aimed at any specific person.

Here goes:

For a while now, I've been thinking of creating a guild called <Chat Channel>. There will be 4 ranks, and each rank will display what I have seen happens upon a famed, but corrupt, member of the community getting leadership (A.K.A: Absolute and total control/power) of a chat channel (no-one in specific, I repeat, just generic).

Ranks:

"Prick" - This is the Leader of Chat Channel. Upon each new member joining, he throws a hissy fit either through whispering them or through Guild Chat before ignoring them. He may feel the need to kick certain members of the bottom two ranks for amusement.

A***-hole Accomplice - The "officer" rank. This guy is, basically, the Prick's eyes and ears. Anything he sees or reads is reported back to the prick, so the prick can nerdrage at the lower ranks repeatedly every 10 or so minutes. Some information may be twisted to seem worse than it is, or just plain lies.

Member - Basically, someone who's spent 24 hours as the bottom rank. They are forced to be doggedly obedient to their overseers (the above ranks), and hostile towards the bottom rank members. Failure to comply will result in Guild Kickage. Regardless of that, 25% are kicked by the "Prick" for amusement.

Victim - The newest member, insulted, blamed, victimised and harassed on a constant basis by all without reason. Much like the member, they must put up with it and be obedient, but they are given one or two more chances than the member, being "new". 50% are kicked purely for the Prick's amusement.

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Thus, I repeat, the above is my experience of the average chat channel. Again, for those that may take offence, (other than the whole Steve Hughes' Comedy Video on being offended) it wasn't referenced directly at anyone.

[Garmegin]

Never witnessed such chat channel crap myself, so I can only wonder what dumps ya been in. But I've always thought of the possibility of chat channels being abused like that and always wondered what the fuck were Blizzard thinking. Consider myself with you on venting about that even if I've never had the "luck" to see it myself.

[Muzjhath]

Garmegin ... Trade at high time?

[Garmegin]

Trade? What you talking about?

[Lavian]

I think Etular is referring to me.

On a more serious note however. You should have gotten use to things such as quite a few years back. Trade being a perfect example.

[Etular]

I think Etular is referring to me.

I did say it was completely generic.

If you think it was about yourself, then that is, ofcourse, your own interpretation on it. Not to mention, would I really push my luck in trying to disguise a former event as a supposed "guild idea", not mentioning any name so as to avoid any possibilities of getting banned for "Name and shame" or "insulting a mod"?

On a more serious note however. You should have gotten use to things such as quite a few years back. Trade being a perfect example.

Good point - but there's no specific "Leader" of trade that can kick and/or ban people. The worst they can do is nerdrage, in which case you can do the same back - and most times even making the person look like a fool in the process.

[Lavian]

I don't think I have been in trade chat for atleast 1-2 years now. Nothing good comes from it.

[Quin]

I live in the attic but I have no door, the last days people have been working on reinforcing walls, straightening out stone, spraypainting stuff. It starts early in the morning and by the time I wake up I'm so incredibly high from the fumes already.

I hate getting high off chemicals unintended before you've even woken up

[Arinith]

I live in the attic but I have no door

Oh, I just had a really dumb moment where I thought you were completely walled in with no way of escape. That would have been one hell of a reason to complain!

Yeah, I know what you mean though. Make sure to drink plenty of water and... good luck?

[Meralynn / Ashla]

I live in the attic but I have no door

Oh, I just had a really dumb moment where I thought you were completely walled in with no way of escape. That would have been one hell of a reason to complain!

Yeah, I know what you mean though. Make sure to drink plenty of water and... good luck?

I thought exactly the same! Goodness, we're stupid. xD

Anyway, damn.

[Kristeas Sunbinder]

Venting, does that include *farts* never mind.

[Neyvin/Noxie]

WHY THE HELL IS THERE NO MIRACLE CURE FOR A FUCKING SIMPLE COLD
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

[Muzjhath]

Superaids.

[Grufftoof]

I live in the attic but I have no door

Oh, I just had a really dumb moment where I thought you were completely walled in with no way of escape. That would have been one hell of a reason to complain!

Yeah, I know what you mean though. Make sure to drink plenty of water and... good luck?

I thought exactly the same! Goodness, we're women. xD

Anyway, damn.

Fixed.

Anyway, do I have something to rant about? I did just read all these rants and think: No. not really.

Apart from maybe the EDL and Johnny "Mad Dog" Adair. I'd rant about them. And the stupidity of the racist cunts who came to Bradford to cause shit last week. But this isn't really a rant or a vent (also, where ARE those vent details?). It's just something barely thought up and jumbled down as I consider logging off.

OH! *grabs a cricket bat and enters "the room"* You know what. I despise Morrissey. He is a wanksponge. And people who don't swear with wit or intellect. And people with no bloody manners. And if you make a cup of tea, and forget about the teabag (or the tea leaves) and drink it, and it goes in your mouth. I DESPISE THAT.

Hate is a bit strong. And better saved, if ever used, for things that actually, really, really matter. In the flesh. In the here and now.

*leaves the room with a broken cricket bat and a grin*

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