2.1 Nilda Meyrick: Letters to Nygarth

These letters have been written between Nilda and Nygarth a few months ago, there was a time that they dated but their relationship came to a rather sudden end and had left alot of bitterness and unspoken words between them.
Currently they have managed to put these aside and are able to once again talk to eachother as friends.
The letter she writes first is a reply to his farewell poem he had written long before these events ever happened, long before she finally replied.

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Poem:

Nilda looks to the sky and a small Arathorian eagle circles above her. A note tied to it's foot as it swoops down onto her arm. The parchment is tear stained, and the writing is scrawled.

I wanted to make you my own,
And leave everything else alone.
A wife, a kid, it didn't matter to me,
Some'ow, justifiably,
I fled from my life into yours,
If only I saw my own flaws.

I know that ye're stubborn as a mule, dear,
And that ye won't admit to your fear,
O' being a stepmum, being a wife,
Doesn't sit well with you. Causes you strife,
And you don't deserve those ties,
Besides. How can I clip the wings of a bird tha' wishes te fly?

I'm older than I feel, I feel,
And tha' some'ow seals the deal.
I can't be what ye want me to be,
I can't give ye everything, your ultimate glee,
I'm a fool, Nilda, for thinking I was what you wanted,
What you needed, lusted and fought for. But haunted,

By your own demons, alike I,
And thus our love's flame did die,
And no matter 'ow many tears I cry,
How many sighs, I sigh,
You'll always be too young.
To sing the same song, that I've sung.

So I'll go. Sing another song,
Perhaps for a short time, or a long,
I don't know where I'll go, who I'll meet,
If I'll ever return with cold feet.
I just can't stay, watching you grow,
Wishing that we'd stayed with the ebb and the flow.

Together ferever.

Nilda, do you realise the pain a man goes through?
When he's forced, by love, to ditch the women that rules not only his heart. Due,
The death penalty. Hated by his 'people', that died.
The Shattering hitting hard, as we flied,
Together in heavenly bliss,
As we kiss.

The feeling of guilt tripping through my veins,
Whilst I betray everything I've worked for. Change lanes,
In life. Seems frivolous to you. So easily done,
Whilst I did what I did. Just a bit of fun?
I was never playing a game.
I didn't want to play with your heart, my dame.

I was in it for the long haul, my wife and child away,
Oh the things I could say,
The feelings I could feel,
The deals I could seal,
But no one saw it my way.
Nilda, it was me that had the ultimate price to pay.

I was a dirty, abusing, cheating cunt,
And I deserved every title, every punt,
To my ego. To my pride.
As long as I had you by my side,
I could deal with everyone,
But alone. I crumble and fall, like the sun.

Perhaps one day, like sunrise, I'll rise.
Perhaps one day, I'll come out of disguise,
Cut the tough guy act,
Learn some tact,
Who knows? And who cares?
Noone. Noone else says my prayers.

Together. A useless endeavour.

This eagle flies only to me,
Overland and oversea,
From Hyjal to Borean,
My last remaining loyal Arathorian,
He doesn't judge, he doesn't sneer,
So if ye wish. Write back, my dear.

Signed-

Nygarth 'Crow-eye' Thorgint.

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Nygarth ...


It has taken me way too long before I was able to reply to your last letter. I never knew what to say to you, what to write so I found it pointless to try.
Now that I have spent a few days on my own, isolated from the newly formed order I moved to .. surrounded by nothing but the green nature of Darnassus I had time to think.
Still I don't know what I can say to you, your departure was sudden and I have no idea how to handle this. But I thought it was time for atleast an apology from me.
I never meant to cause such chaos in your life, to hurt you the way I did by feeling hurt myself.
I'm sorry, my first love, that things did not go as we both would have preferred, I'm sorry for the life you lost because of me.

All this time I had too little time to let my mind wander back to the days of you and me, today I found myself drifting back into memories from then, cherishing them to erase the suffering in my heart.
Time has created too many emotionall pain, too many scars for me to carry. I have been going on, stood strong and found myself capable of doing so. But to all things comes an end, I was send away to come here in Darnassus, to "unwind" from all the latest stress.
Being here has given me the chance to gather the courage needed to write to you, even if I can't undo what happened ... I still hope you are well, wish that you are safe and healthy. Sometimes I hope that one day I can meet you again, and that such meeting will be at a moment in time that there will be no pain, that I won't see the hurt I've caused in your eyes.

I'm young and foolish, I'll make plenty mistakes but I'll learn. Hopefully you'll be able to forgive me for the mistakes I made, for the different path I took. But please do never forget that what I felt for you ... even if things ended as they did, so soon .. it was all true, no pretences.
I wish to remember you, my first real love, and our moments together. They will always keep a spot in my heart to which I can look back to with a smile, memories that can grant me strenght.

Perhaps I will not hear off you again, but I have atleast managed to finally write to you. I hope you are well and have found a new cause within the Kingdom. I saw your brother sometimes and was told you have all been gathering once more. I wish you the best of luck, perhaps in the future we might stand together in war once more even if our paths has taken us to other places.
I'll have your back, it would be an honor to stand next to you and raise my arms against those who have taken our lands and loved ones, knowing someone I respect and care for stands next to me.

The future will tell.

Oh ....
I hope your baby-girl has been in good hands and that she is growing strong just like her parents.
If she grows to be a true Arathorian she'll become a strong woman, a daughter to be proud off.

Be well Nygarth,
'An dornu kel Fodrig'

-Nilda-